Rice Family

So, since I am working we decided to test out J being a stay at home dad. He always ever-so-subtly hinted at how great he would be at it, that if he had that much time the laundry and dishes would be done, and the house would stay clean. That he would love and enjoy staying at home with the kids and do all sorts of fun things with them. He says these things when in comparison to how poorly I do (not that he would say so in so many words). He would also say that is in my head...and yet...he hints. Anyhow, he has been Mr. Mom now for about 2 weeks (week and 1/2?) and is done. He decided it was not for him, he can't stand it, and can not keep the house clean. who knew? gotta love him anyhow.

Someone is pulling at my heart. It twinges now and then and I have to pause And think about why. What twists my heart about with chaos and simplicity? What causes it to surge with joy plummet with fear and flicker in sorrow? Who knew that someone would have such impact over me and my life, and my emotions? Why did no one warn me that I would lose all control and semblance of balance? What happened between then and now? Did I give up so much of myself, or gain wonders and worlds to myself? My heart is pounding, I'm excited and scared and proud. Who knew? Who knew that a little girl going to kindergarten could do all this to me? Carry on, baby girl. Keep going, Keep growing, keep my heart beating.